Love Letter

Dear Love,



I've really come to miss you so much...I wonder how you've been. I miss you so much. There are days I space out in the middle of class thinking about you. As soon as my math teacher calls on me i have no idea what she asked and then i get confused. Heheh...so much for trying to get a higher grade.


Lately the very thought of you has gotten to me. I would come home trying not to think of it. But in the end, I cry in bed before I sleep. What should I do? I wonder... I've been thinking of how far you are from me, I want to grasp your arm and pull you into a tight hug. I wouldn't let go. I would never let go...

I try my best not to be so down about it, after all, I'm lucky enough to be able to talk to you right? Then I notice...I'm going crazy. I want to fly over there and steal you. Keep you for myself, I know it's selfish, but its okay to act selfish once in a while, right...? I miss you. I miss you very much. I love you. I want you to know I love you more than anyone, I care about you more than anyone. I've fallen hard for you, its come to the point that once we meet, and I assure you we will, I will make love to you until we can no longer stand, because I won't be able to hold in these feelings...

I cry now because I miss you, but I shouldn't cry. I should smile. So I will do my best to smile. I had a dream of you just a few days ago...you had come to new york. You came for me. We were together at last. I made up my mind, I will start working again...I will make money. I will save it, and if I get up to 500 dollars, I can open a bank account and keep saving the money. If I risk the little good relationship left with my parents, I will do so.

I will forget about school, but I wont forget to support you. You are the only one I feel this way for. I just...love you so much!!! How can I control such a strong feeling in me that will just burst into my emotion, at any given time? I don't know. But I will try. I will try for you, to be happy, and to be patient. I can not leave you...

If...if you ever end this relationship, I will not accept it. I will hold on to you. I will still love you, for life. You are the only one I love, I won't let go of it. Never. I love you. I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you...

I can't stop saying it at night. "I love you, I love you..." I can't stop so explain to me why I can't stop! What is it about you that gets me going crazy when you are gone...why? Why do I cry for you so much. And I've realized...

It's because I love you that much....

I love you...

Sincerely,
Anonymous.

I can't run anymore

As sitting at the table, waiting for class to dismiss, my brain pops out again, the heart can't take it anymore. It beats and suddenly you feel like your whole bodyis being lifted off the chair. Too much stress with school, parents, tests, life, and it goes on the list. The girl wants to stop time and stay still for once, but she is too busy all over the place and thinking too much. Life kepts going on the way and she can't do anything about it. But the pain is growing and growing into a million pieces, or a puzzle that can't be sloved.

Eyes turning red because of sleepness and a head that is trying to control the movement. But the small head is full of drama, stress, life, and school that never stops going on. Everyday getting pressured as stepping into the school steps, she finally realized that if she can laugh then everything can be fine. 'A good laugh", isn't that so strange but every person needs a smile.

Perception of Love

What is LOVE????

Love is a many things

Love makes your heart sing

For love you would take your own life

This man right here wants you to be his wife

Wife me that's what I say

This love thing can go a long way

Teach me this crazy thing

This thing that makes my heart sing

Truth is you can't buy love it can't be taught but it is a thought that makes you fall

Its just a feeling brought to you matter fact sought by you

Love is dangerous but to me its my adventure

The perfect person I want to venture on with, is it me or my reflection

The one that keeps getting hurt by ones rejection

Love is what you ask and the answer is infinite

Lies

In this world there are so many liars
Backstabbing friends who deny it
Love makes you think hard
Trying and trying to figure out if you should goon without him or her
Your dreams are blurred and you wish that time would move
You love to hurt and hurt just to love
Is this worth my time or can I go above
What makes me quiver is it you that I have feelings for the one that feels for someone more than me
I know you like a brother, meaning we were meant for each other
I go crazy thinking of you and I didn't know my friend was thinking too
In this world there are so many liars and backstabbing friends who Just Deny It

Untitled Two

My clock is ticking softly as I toss and turn in bed.
I look at my window and just sigh and bang my head.
The pain that I feel inside is not going away.
Am I supposed to take it all in and pretend everything's okay?
I smile at school and just live life regularly but if you see behind my eyes.
There's tears, hate, and a part of me that wants to just lay down and die.

Untitled One

Can anybody hear her as she cries for help?
She's screaming inside in her room as she hurts herself.
Wondering and pleading for something real
Something that causes her to think and feel
To remember why life is worth living
Because right now she suffers from all of the pain
It's tormenting her slowly and quietly
She sees everything changing.
Talking to her friends has turned to complete and silent solitude.
Practicing the piano has turned to reading emo novels in her room.
She has nothing to do with herself and it's driving her insane.
She found someone that taught her why life is worth living
To help her remember how music sounded
and why falling in love feels great
Unfortunately she is restricted of being allowed to date
While she does this in secret, her best guy friend tells her something
Something that just changed their relationship completely
He fell head over heels for her
He writes poems of her as he falls deeply in love.
He reminds her of why falling in love feels awful.
She sees everything changing and she can't do anything to stop it.
A new chapter, a new life. Things forgotten...left behind.
All she can do is sit and smile and pretend everything is all right

Dear Beautiful Flower...

Dear Beautiful Flower,

Bending in the wind.
You are no longer near me.

You are weak and thin.

Dear Beautiful Flower,

Such an impulsive gaze.
To believe you couldn't survive...

This frightful phase.

Dear Beautiful Flower,

I miss you so.
The once warm skin,

Is now so cold.

Dear Beautiful Flower,

Why aren't you here?
Because this is what he wanted..

He wanted you near.

Dear Beautiful Flower,

You had such an intellectual mind.
You were, not just beautiful,

But also kind.

Dear Beautiful Flower,

I loved you so much.
I cry and cry,

Because I miss your soft touch.

Dear Beautiful Flower,

Will you visit my dreams this year?
Because that day...
Because the loss of you...

That was my greatest fear come true.


Dedicated To:
My now desceased Aunt,
Zorrida Erazo