This memory is bittersweet and familiar
The way you held my hand and never let it go
The way I always turned my head and never let my smile show
I'd close my eyes and pretend time stopped
Because I never wanted the day to end
All of our fears are up against the wall
Just waiting for us to snap back into reality
It's just you and me
It was just you and me
Now as I walk in the park on a cold autumn day
The swing sets are now empty
There are no more lovers there anymore
Just ghosts
Ghosts that haunt me and torment me
I'm sorry
I never said that properly until now
But now those swings are no longer empty
And my hand is now in his
Now there are new memories to make
New steps to take
And life goes on
I wish you good luck in life
Well, so long and goodnight.
Inspired by Underoath's Reinventing Your Exit <3
-nitnatxp
Monday, May 11, 2009
Saturday, May 9, 2009
Heading for Disaster
Just close your eyes and say goodnight
As you drift into a dream of a dream
In the chaos of your thoughts
Just say goodbye whie you revise a letter to a dear old friend
Because this is the last time you'll send him one again
This is the last time for everything
You can't stop thinking on this one thought
You can't remember everything that you were taught
Nobody said that this would be easy
So don't cry on me
The monsters of your nightmares still live
You see them in the windows
In the shadows of your deepest secrets
There are monsters under your bed
Cursing you in the night when the lights are dead
Nobody said this would be easy
Nobody said that life would be fair
You're going to be lonely
You're going to run faster
Just keep running this way
You'll be heading for disaster
[if this didn't make sense, then i'm so sorry. LOL because i was listening to this heavy metal song and just started typing these words from my head]
->it's just random stuff :]
nitnatxp
As you drift into a dream of a dream
In the chaos of your thoughts
Just say goodbye whie you revise a letter to a dear old friend
Because this is the last time you'll send him one again
This is the last time for everything
You can't stop thinking on this one thought
You can't remember everything that you were taught
Nobody said that this would be easy
So don't cry on me
The monsters of your nightmares still live
You see them in the windows
In the shadows of your deepest secrets
There are monsters under your bed
Cursing you in the night when the lights are dead
Nobody said this would be easy
Nobody said that life would be fair
You're going to be lonely
You're going to run faster
Just keep running this way
You'll be heading for disaster
[if this didn't make sense, then i'm so sorry. LOL because i was listening to this heavy metal song and just started typing these words from my head]
->it's just random stuff :]
nitnatxp
Friday, May 8, 2009
Burden
I remember the first time I met you.
It was an ordinary summer day.
Your sweet scent of lavender,
your beautiful, low voice,
your soft skin.
You were different,
as if from another planet.
A wonderful, strange creature,
that acted compassionately.
Months have passed
and you are not person I first saw.
Too crazy, too childish.
I don't understand.
Why did you have to change?
But I can't hurt your feelings any longer
and I am stuck with this burden
on my shoulders.
I can't let you go.
It is simply too hard......
It was an ordinary summer day.
Your sweet scent of lavender,
your beautiful, low voice,
your soft skin.
You were different,
as if from another planet.
A wonderful, strange creature,
that acted compassionately.
Months have passed
and you are not person I first saw.
Too crazy, too childish.
I don't understand.
Why did you have to change?
But I can't hurt your feelings any longer
and I am stuck with this burden
on my shoulders.
I can't let you go.
It is simply too hard......
Sunshine
Your rays of light warm me,
Your smile gives me chills,
Your skin I touch smoothly,
quickly gives me thrills,
I think of you daily,
throughout nights, and in my dreams,
I think of you greatly,
even though sometimes it seems...
that this relationship between us,
will it truly last?
but I shouldn't have thought that,
because this is not like my past.
I will be with you,
you will soon be here.
And once that happens,
all will be clear.
Your rays of light will shine brightly,
blinding me in the sight,
of such a truly magnificent beauty
and such beautiful daylight.
You're my sun in my world,
making everything brighten,
making everything seem fine,
even if I am frightened.
I will shine with you, my sun.
I will shine until the end,
because I just can't let go of your rays,
I must love you until the end.
Your smile gives me chills,
Your skin I touch smoothly,
quickly gives me thrills,
I think of you daily,
throughout nights, and in my dreams,
I think of you greatly,
even though sometimes it seems...
that this relationship between us,
will it truly last?
but I shouldn't have thought that,
because this is not like my past.
I will be with you,
you will soon be here.
And once that happens,
all will be clear.
Your rays of light will shine brightly,
blinding me in the sight,
of such a truly magnificent beauty
and such beautiful daylight.
You're my sun in my world,
making everything brighten,
making everything seem fine,
even if I am frightened.
I will shine with you, my sun.
I will shine until the end,
because I just can't let go of your rays,
I must love you until the end.
Thursday, May 7, 2009
Too Much
You leave me in a muddle,
all confused.
You think I am your friend?
After all that I have put up with you,
after all that you have done to me,
never.
Never again will I act as if we were the best of friends,
never again will I hang out with you,
never again will I lend you my hand
because I'm just too sick and tired.
I can't put up with this anymore.
Don't even bother to say a word to me
because I won't listen.
You think that you can hug me
and everything will go away.
Then you act unbridled,
too hard to control,
too opinionated,
and rude.
Your emotions get in the way.
All the pain,
all the tears,
all the dilemmas
shall never be forgotten.
At least,
not by me.
You think that we can let it slip
and efface the painful times.
Well, I've been doing that for too long.
I even lost count of all the times you have betrayed me.
Your cruel words and actions have diffused into me
and destroyed me many times.
I cannot salvage this friendship any longer.
I travel down the risky path of life,
but one thing is for sure -
I'm not going with you,
not anymore.
all confused.
You think I am your friend?
After all that I have put up with you,
after all that you have done to me,
never.
Never again will I act as if we were the best of friends,
never again will I hang out with you,
never again will I lend you my hand
because I'm just too sick and tired.
I can't put up with this anymore.
Don't even bother to say a word to me
because I won't listen.
You think that you can hug me
and everything will go away.
Then you act unbridled,
too hard to control,
too opinionated,
and rude.
Your emotions get in the way.
All the pain,
all the tears,
all the dilemmas
shall never be forgotten.
At least,
not by me.
You think that we can let it slip
and efface the painful times.
Well, I've been doing that for too long.
I even lost count of all the times you have betrayed me.
Your cruel words and actions have diffused into me
and destroyed me many times.
I cannot salvage this friendship any longer.
I travel down the risky path of life,
but one thing is for sure -
I'm not going with you,
not anymore.
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
Honestly
Honestly
Whenever I'm upset
Don't ask me about it
Just hug me
That's all I really want
Honestly
Everytime I say that I don't care
I probably do at the time
I just don't want you have that satisfaction that you're right
Honestly
Everytime the day turns to night
And the lights go out
The only thing I ever think about as I lay here
Is you
Honestly
Every time I hit you
I always feel bad
It's not that I'm soft, it's just that I never want to hurt you
The truth is is that I never want to let go
And I just wanted to let you know
Though I might not show it
Though I might not ever say it aloud
I'll say it now because this written word is permanent
You're my everything.
I need you more than yesterday.
More than I did five seconds ago
So through all the pain, happiness & laughter
I want you to be my happily ever after.
Honestly, I can say that I love you dearly. <3
Whenever I'm upset
Don't ask me about it
Just hug me
That's all I really want
Honestly
Everytime I say that I don't care
I probably do at the time
I just don't want you have that satisfaction that you're right
Honestly
Everytime the day turns to night
And the lights go out
The only thing I ever think about as I lay here
Is you
Honestly
Every time I hit you
I always feel bad
It's not that I'm soft, it's just that I never want to hurt you
The truth is is that I never want to let go
And I just wanted to let you know
Though I might not show it
Though I might not ever say it aloud
I'll say it now because this written word is permanent
You're my everything.
I need you more than yesterday.
More than I did five seconds ago
So through all the pain, happiness & laughter
I want you to be my happily ever after.
Honestly, I can say that I love you dearly. <3
Saturday, May 2, 2009
The Better Half of Me
I’ve gotten so cold,
I’ve given you the road,
Towards my little heart,
That you’ve torn apart…
Gonna break it again…?
I’ve given you my soul,
A pretty little soul,
That aches for a goal,
A possible goal…
That you may never give.
You don’t know me
You never know me
You never see me
You never kiss me
You won’t know me
You’ll never know me
You’ll never see me
Or ever kiss me.
You’ll never see, the better half of me,
The better half of me,
You’re just gonna have to get out and leave.
No, you’ll never know that me,
That better half of me,
Because that better half of me,
Wants you to bleed.
The better half of me.
You always cry,
You always sigh,
You never wait,
You’re always late…
What am I gonna do?
You make me cry,
You make me sigh,
Wish I could die,
But I rather try…
To live for someone who really cares about love.
You’ll never see, the better half of me,
The better half of me,
You’re just gonna have to get out and leave.
No, you’ll never know that me,
That better half of me,
Because that better half of me,
Wants you to bleed.
The better half of me.
I’ve given you the road,
Towards my little heart,
That you’ve torn apart…
Gonna break it again…?
I’ve given you my soul,
A pretty little soul,
That aches for a goal,
A possible goal…
That you may never give.
You don’t know me
You never know me
You never see me
You never kiss me
You won’t know me
You’ll never know me
You’ll never see me
Or ever kiss me.
You’ll never see, the better half of me,
The better half of me,
You’re just gonna have to get out and leave.
No, you’ll never know that me,
That better half of me,
Because that better half of me,
Wants you to bleed.
The better half of me.
You always cry,
You always sigh,
You never wait,
You’re always late…
What am I gonna do?
You make me cry,
You make me sigh,
Wish I could die,
But I rather try…
To live for someone who really cares about love.
You’ll never see, the better half of me,
The better half of me,
You’re just gonna have to get out and leave.
No, you’ll never know that me,
That better half of me,
Because that better half of me,
Wants you to bleed.
The better half of me.
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