Whats going with me?

It seems like the drama
never ends with me.
I try to avoid, i try to
escape or even run away
from it. But I can't fight it.
This how life is, friends betray
you, friends come and go.

Each day is the start of something
new. I want to be free, free like the
bird. Free like the sky blowing across
the world. Walking each step to the world
of drama can set you a mood of emotions.

You feel like everything is different and i don't
know what to do. I need someone to help me
I don't know who to turn to. I want the anger, the past, the
tears to be wash away from my face. I want
my mind to be free just focus on
something else. But whats the
point? You feel like doing
something you would regent.
I am tired I am done I just want
to move away from the past. I want
the future, fresh new start cuz this me
accept me whoever i am.

fairytales

Fairy tales are for stories but in some cases people can make them happen.....for example i know a girl that was looking for prince charming for 14 years of her life... i mean literally looking and on a Saturday in July they meet and he asked her"you want to be my girl?" the girl said"YES" from that day on they had a great time together everything went well until one day and everything changed.. the boy had found her diary and he didn't like what he read and almost ended that but he didn't and since that day things haven't been the way they planned only some things ... a year and 3 months past and they still love each other deeply and are sure that they want to be together for their whole life together and like any other relationship there will always be problems and hard times but they make it because they talk everything out and they are so happy they meet and they cant be separated at all.. this is a fairytale that will last until the end of time and they are happy that they are the only ones together and they cant picture themselves without each other and they can defeat anything if they love each other and work with each other. TRUE LOVE NEVER ENDS!!!!!

nothing is there

I'm sitting here crying and you can't even hear me.
I'm sitting here sighing and you don't even look at me.

No, instead you shut the stupid door.
No, instead you try to ignore.

what happened to peace?
what happened to love?

It's gone, it doesn't exist.
Just another thing I have to buy added to my long list.

You think you wanna die?
You think I'm the one to blame?

Step into my shoes,
and swallow the tears, taste the pain.

I wish you'd hear the screaming in my head,
wish you'd try to understand, try to care.

But the only thing from you that I'm feeling..

Is the fact that nothing's there...

Feel the pressure

As face to face my mind
turns into confusion.
Walking around, just
looking at you makes me
feel weak and full of doubt.
But in my mind i don't i feel
strong as the sky by the stars
shinning down on me.

Maybe this is me. I don't know
what is going with me. everything
is changed. No words, no nothing
just a random silent. Walking away
from you feel like punching you
for a reason. My hands show me the
sign, my eyes give me the courage and
fight the damn tears away. Life is way
important than you. You are just a
flower waiting to fell on me, I am the
vase waiting and just picking on by other
flowers.

Life is too damn for me, my emitions takes
the best out of me. Feeling fearless i feel
like a stranger in new world. But what do i know?
you are the mastermind not me, but i do know
that you are nothing without me. Forget you
forget the past fight it all just time is going and
its time to get my life go

New Something

New Something

Hey there,
Yes, you there
From heaven to earth
Made of clouds or dirt?

Where have you been.
Making me thin
Thinking of when
We can meet.

Hey there,
Yes, you there
From heaven to earth
Made of clouds or dirt?


When we hugged,
Time stopped
When we kissed
Everything went in reverse.
From hell to heaven
Me craving
Your touch
One last time.

Hey there,
Yes, you there
From heaven to earth
Made of clouds or dirt?

Hey there,
Yes, you there
From heaven to earth
Made of clouds or dirt?

Every second of time
Every minute of day
Feels like it should last forever
Go on and on never ever
Ending
For us
And just us but no one
For

Hey there,
Yes, you there
From heaven to earth
Made of clouds or dirt?


Hey there,
Yes, you there
From heaven to earth
Made of clouds or dirt?

We are the best
Attracted by opposites
Laws of science and math
Love of nature and technology
We are finally together
And that’s all that matter.

Hey there,
Yes, you there
From heaven to earth
Made of clouds or dirt?

A terrible beauty

Eyes like daggers and hair like silk,

How can one resist this new, tempting ilk?

The softest skin, a voice sweet as honey,

Will she fall for you or will she just use you for the money?

Dressed in black, walking around with pride,

It is no wonder she never looks anyone in the eye...

For she has reasons, and reasons that I could not console,

and because of them her body is a mere body without a soul.

High pitch scream, river flowing tears,

all she's ever done is bring more fear.

But even without a soul and without being able to make a decree,

she hides the sorrow and is still somehow a terrible beauty.

Rage

Blood pumps through my body at swift speeds.
My hearts beats rapidly.
My mind keeps twisting and turning.

I don't know what to say or what to do.
This thoughts are killing me.
I just want to know.
I can't wait any longer...

Why can't you just tell me?
Why does everything have to be so complicated?

Can't you see my pain?
Don't you see what I am going through?
Obviously not...

I keep telling myself that it is worth it...

It is worth it...

I have to keep being strong and thoughen through the misery,
because I know that everything will work out in the end...

But every time these thoughts overtake me,
a darkness swallows me whole
and I keep getting more and more impatient.

I feel like screaming...
shouting out to the world
how much it hurts to keep waiting and waiting
for a mere response from you
and how much it hurts to wonder and not know
how you really feel about me...

So much rage...