Pandora's Box

What happened to those old times?
Children playing,
Adults laughing,
Everyone happy.

Everything was good....

But, now,
The world is a cruel place
Filled with evil, sadness, and greediness

Children crying,
Adults worried,
Everyone sad.

There is no peace,
Everyone is fighting,
Nobody is getting along.
Many people are sick and dying.
No sign of love anywhere....

What am I to do?
It's too late:

Pandora's box has been opened.

But at least,
We have hope.....

lost. vacant of inspiration.

sometimes, the worst of all things that could possibly happen to someone who is writing is losing their inspiration. just like losing their train of thought while you are in a conversation, or when you are at a lost of words to describe what you want to say, losing inspiration is a road block. an involuntary stop, forcing you to lose your mind.
i have one of those now. I've been having one for the last 2 years. sometimes i don't even notice it's there. but now, more than ever, with my urge of wanting to write, i can't help but hate this road block. maybe I'm just thinking too much. maybe I'm nervous over what i write and unlike now i can't "think" to write. MAYbe, the best forms of writing, are those that fall in the forms of a rant.

maybe that's my inspiration. ranting. =) man, do i love to rant. ranting, and rambling, and wondering, and inspiring. inspiring....my ins[iration! why, is it back? or was it never gone? hmmm. imma go take a shower, and hopefully begin my long, overdue essay that i have been needing to do. thank you inspiration. you are my life, so stay here with me.

Hot Coco

Its 20 minutes to nine o'clock.
I sit, legs crossed, drinking hot coco.
It burns my tongue, and I wonder
When will I learn, to let it cool off first?

The taste is sweet and dry.
I let it warm my body
And start feeling strange.

I look into the cup,
the left over dark chocolate at the bottom
it smells good
but tastes dry and bitter.

I think of my life
as I stare into the cup.
I think and think.
Its Christmas,

So Why am I so down?

I feel like I am about to cry
When the phone of my mind rings

Its my brother calling

My brother is calling

And I feel a joy in my heart that I cannot describe.

As I hold the phone to my heart I whisper the words
that I wished to say everyday

"I've missed you...I love you"...

Bittersweet failure

Struck in a place where no one can't see me, just when things were going okay I lose everything. I lose my friends, i lose my perfect grades that goes down the hill and never going back. Alone, tired, scared, feeling lost in the dark that is making my stomach hungry. Eyes popping out when I saw my next term period, thinking "I am so stupid and want to die". You feel like you tried everything and want to give up on yourself.

Your teacher tells you to work hard, but so what? IN your mind you are saying "I am working hark maybe I am just stupid". People life is a challenge, life to me is a roller coaster that is going up and down. Now I am all way down and lost, crying for help. Life is also unfair, you see people that you hate gets everything you ever wanted but you just have to kept on working. You get mixed of emotions, jealously and angry.

But listening to music clams me down. You can't tell anyone your secret because you just scared it is going to turn into gossip, crush, problems, life.

Failure

Just when I thought everything was going well,

It hits me.

It makes me fall onto my knees,
and cuts my hands like glass.
It gives me headaches and...
It makes me cry.

So much to do in such little time,
how can I ever finish?
How will I ever succeed?

All I can do is ask myself how
and say "Its impossible"
What am I good at?
And what am I useful for?

I don't deserve to be alive.
I should've never been born.
Because how can a person like me,
please my parents?

I'm a mistake, a burden.

How can a person like me,
succeed in college?
Pass with such confidence to make a great future?
Support the one I love?

How can I?
When I'm no good
When I'm of no use...
And all I can do is cry about it.

Because I'm a failure.

A failure...

You could tell me I'm beautiful

But can you tell me why I should believe?

You can say you think I'm intelligent

But can you prove it to the rest of them?

You can say I'm so kind

But what do you truly say when I'm not looking?

If you plan to spread gossip,

If you plan to start fights,

Get away from me,

'Cause there's no way I'm arguing today

You can say that you want me

But you'll just use me to impress

You can kick me and spit at me

Just to show that it's cool

Well let me tell you one thing

You don't make the rules

Lets see you talk back

Lets see you act mean

Lets see you win a fight

Without your buddies

I am going to tell you here

I am going to tell you now

I am stronger than you are

I am stronger by the miles

So stop the sweet act

'Cause you lost the round

And here I go walking

Down to "Proud of me" town.

The Empty Stare

Those eyes
across from me
they lie
uncomfortably

that stare
successfully
took my dignity
and the hope from me

the silence
echoed in my ears
and gave me fear
that you would'nt be near

that twinkle
It gave me chills
and somehow
I felt thrilled

The color
made me think
of my feelings
of my own dreams

That look
It killed me
I felt as if
I was no longer free

Those eyes
across from me
the stare is...
Just so empty