Pretty Wings

"Your face will be the reason I smile, but I will not see what I can not have forever.."

Your feathers were so soft, your pretty wings..
So beautiful, so right, so wonderfully comfortable.

Those eyes looked at me lovingly,
and gave me a sense of this lasting forever.

Holding you...I feel the love sink in deeply.
I never want to let go..wish we could stay this way forever.

Me, caressing those pretty wings...
Long as you don't fly away I am happy.

"..let love set you free to fly your pretty wings around.."

I have to learn to let go though, learn to accept the fact it may happen.

lifting into the air slowly, hovering above me asleep,
your hair hanging down, softly passing through my hands...

those pretty wings eventually learned how to fly..and grew..

question is, shall you stay hovering over me...or shall you slowly fade away..

taking my breath away with you...


your pretty wings...

those pretty wings...

the part of you...I may not understand...but can learn about eventually...if you let me.

"...fly your pretty wings around"







inspired by the song Pretty Wings by Maxwell, quotations from the song.

Pain never goes away

Tick off, Tick off
my head going around
each second as the time
of the clock goes on forever.
Day and night my head never
stops thinking why is that?...
I wonder. The beat of my heart
beats like a car is going across
a red light.

My legs shaking as if i have been
running forever. Fingers writing as
if they want to write like this. Parents
yelling at each other, my own mom accuses
me the blame of her marriage problems.

As I go away to my room i grab something to
hurt myself. The thought of hurting myself
is making the pain away. Starting at the wall,
listening to music trying to make the pain go away.
I need something that can set me free. I want to be
free as a bird flying away from this world.

School never ends with the madness in your brain, my
brain goes as if a hot flaming burning down a building.
The pressure of studies counting by, but I don't care about
school. As i get my report card I stare at them as if they were a
puzzle to me that i am trying to solve. I look at down the subjects,
as the tears on my eyes start as falling down. I realized I failed
a class, I wonder whats wrong with me?

My life moving around a direction as if someone trying to
tell me someone. Friends, sigh I got no friends to help me
they are bunch of users on me. Whats difference of
friendship? You start to walk away from them as
soon they turn their backs on you. Talking snit
about you and laughing at you as if you were no
body. One user friend tells you why does everyone
take advantage of you? You can't be mean? I am like
I want to be the bigger person with
no drama flowing down on me.

In such small school with big dramas going on,
people you don't know pointing fingers at you.
As walking away you realized you forget to eat something
when if a random person tells your mouth smells.
Walking and Walking you bum into your ex crush who you
stopped speaking to 5 months.

It dosen't matter anymore the tears are useless I just want to
be free. I take my stuff and go out the door as I never look back
and whats behind me.