Unidentified

"How are you feeling?" He asked, looking deep into my eyes with concern.

"I don't know what I feel..." I replied, with a blank expression. My eyes were dark, and showed no feeling whatsoever. What was I to do? I was empty...Who could save me from.....

"What do you mean? You have to feel something! haha..." He laughed, but I heard the pain within that laugh...I stared at him, expressionless. All I could think was why...just why this pain? What kind of pain was this?...Why won't it leave...leave me alone...

"I...am going to die aren't I..?.." Tears poured from my eyes...and I couldn't stop them..

"No! You won't...I won't let you..." He held onto my arms, lifting me up from the ground again, I could see he was going to cry as well...

He pulled me into his arms tightly, hugging me. I felt his tears on my shoulder...He then faced me, holding both of my arms again. Tears were still rolling down my cheek, and he looked at me so seriously...I wondered if he was upset...

"....." I stayed silent..and didn't expect that he...would suddenly...

pull me closer, our lips not touching yet, but feeling his breath against my lips, and I'm sure he felt mine against his...he then leaned in and kissed me..

my eyes were low, the tears didn't stop from rolling down my cheeks, and more just came out now...

I felt love, and pain, at the same time...

I would like to die in his arms...but only if he died with me...

He stopped, and pulled away looking into my eyes. he whispered "you won't leave me...I won't let you..." He placed his hands on my cheeks, wiping the tears away. I slowly nodded, whispering back, "...I won't...leave..."

Before I knew it he was lifting me up from the ground, and carrying me home..

singing a tune along the way, I fell asleep in his arms listening.

The unidentified feeling, it disappeared...and all I had left to feel was love...

Love...

Pass over the wine, and throw out the sour milk

".....Wake up....and face me. Don't play dead..'cause maybe...Someday I will walk away and say...You disappoint me. Maybe you're better off this way......"

The song just plays, somewhat speaking the words in my mind that won't come out. I play it loud and clear to you...your lifeless body...

I lick the blood off my fingers, staring at the long cut on your leg, as you sweat and shake on the seat, I smirk.

seeing you scared of me wasn't part of the plan, but it somehow made me feel stronger, like finally being the one on top. Instead of being the one that gets left behind hurting, you are hurting. You are in my place and I in yours.


How does it feel to be the underdog, your highness?

Confused

Now that I told you
how i feel about
you its gone.
The shared
memories, hugs, laughter
is washed away in my mind.
Everytime I think about you
its hard not trying to see your
face. Your face is always on
my mind. Weeks and Weeks
passed no words say to you
except "hi" and "wats up"?
I am so lost I feel like I am
in a road reaching out your hand.
But my heart is full of angry
I have nothing to say to you.
Friends or not my tears would do the
talking for you.